Monday, September 27, 2010

Miss Her So Much

Those memories I had with you are not bygones :'( People could easily ask me to move on but they don't even know how I feel to lose someone I love the most. You were always there when I was in a fight with my family. You were always there when I needed you. You were always there when I feel all alone.

But now, you're not here anymore. I feel weird. My life is totally changed, I'm not comfortable with my new life. I really really need you. But I know you can't be here for me anymore. Everyday, I ask Allah to let you be in my dreams. Even if I'll have a bad dream with you, but that's okay because at least I can meet you.

Although I can't meet you like face to face, but seeing you in my dreams is enough for me to move on :'( I seriously miss you so much. I'm not going to stop praying for you. I miss spending every single time with you. I've never missed a day to contact you. But now!

Please tell me how to live without you, sayang? Please! I don't know how to. I really feel down these days. I don't know why I cry way too much at nights and I don't easily fall asleep just because of you, I can't stop thinking of you. I can't stop reminding all the memories we had together. I really really need you, sayang. Really am :'(